Beauty in the Breakdown

I'm a 21 year old Nerdfigher and a self-professed arts & crafts junkie with a penchant for words.i am a college student majoring in engineering and accounting while working full time as a night auditor.

I like talking about politics, books, relationships, sex, religion, philosophy, literature, music, culture and video games. I have an obsession with mathematics and 3D printing.

We'll probably get along well if you know who John Green is, enjoy dreaming or food, can discuss theology, hate stupidity and mediocrity, like Assassin's Creed, podcasts, and science, and ultimately appreciate books.

Or, if reading isn't your thing, hit me up with a "Hello!" I welcome random messages and comments. I'm also an avid listener of all genre of music, I'm open for conversation. :D

Who I Follow
  • People: But you're suppose to be smart! especially in math.
  • People: Omg you look like the grudge
  • People: Hey, are you awake? Open your eyes!!
  • People: I bet you use chopsticks and eat rice everyday
  • People: ching chong ping ling, does that mean anything to you?
  • People: Dude, don't mess with an Asian. They will Karate chop your ass
  • People: Asians are good at everything
  • People: Do you eat dogs or cats?
  • People: You're going to be a doctor in the future
  • I absolutely hate when people say: "Do you eat dogs or cats?" For example, I was cooking some Pho and offered some to my roommate, and she replied: "No, I don't eat dogs or cat." and walked away.

I lied because even though depression is so common in Asian American communities, we rarely talked about it. The message I grew up with: your mental struggles are our own; it’s up to you to find the inner strength to “ren,” to endure.

The character for “ren” 忍 is the character for “knife” over the “heart.” Endure even when there’s a knife in your heart.

In my thirties I discovered talk therapy, tried to get my parents to go. Their response was basically: “That’s for white people.” “They hook you in,” my mother said. “You can never be cured.”

I wish mental illness didn’t come with stigmas. I wish I could have told my parents that my mind had broken just as easily as if I had to tell them my arm had broken.

To them, ‘Asian’ is our defining characteristic, in a way that ‘white’ would never be used to define themselves. When the “Yellow Fever”ed men speak to me, they aren’t speaking to me, they’re speaking to their idea of an Asian woman, their fantasy made flesh. They’re speaking to every Asian woman they’ve ever seen in the media, every Asian porn actress they’ve ever leered at on their computer screens. My personality tries to push itself forward, but is rendered invisible, obscured by the lenses of racial stereotype.

queerkhmer:

let’s get something straight,

This is a kimono. It’s worn by Japanese people.

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This is not a kimono. It is a hanbok. It’s worn by Korean people.

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This also not a kimono. This is a Hanfu. It was worn by Han Chinese people until the Qing.

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This is also not a kimono. This is a…

Ben Wyatt: Human Disaster

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nobody-but-mebody:

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I DIDN’T MEAN IT 

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cheeky-geek-m0nkey:

fandomsandfeminism:

Not when you are laying around the house, not when you go to the grocery store, not when you sit in a classroom, not when you go to the gym. You are never obligated to get dressed up just so you are pretty for others.

Pretty is not the rent you pay to exist in the world as a woman. 

That last line. Wow.

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What are the funniest things that fans have said to you on the street when they recognize you? (x)

monsieurdangereux:

Diana has no time for your sexist rhetoric.

Sensation Comics Featuring Wonder Woman 05 // Ivan Cohen, marcusto

thecutestofthecute:

Friend has the sad???!!??!!!!!

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I’m coming friend I’ll save you from the sad!!

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I am here now you’re going to be okay!!!

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You are so beautiful and i love you!!!

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shut-up-im-superman:

"I don’t understand bisexuality, I don’t think it exists"

well I don’t understand physics but you don’t see me floating off into space because gravity no longer applies to me

We went from everything, to nothing.
Six word love story. (via dollpoetry)

satanicvaginas:

IM CRYING BC THE ACCURACY HITS DEEP

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Who were you before they broke your heart
I don’t remember (via fuckreiva)

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